I guess I'm more see-thru then I realize..
Taking a break from the a gluten free creativity meter. Just need some more down time. Though it is hard to take.. but when it is given freely.. it makes it a little easier. So Thank you Auntie Sharon! and Mom!
I think tonight I am going to start drawing again.. I think it will be good for me. I used to draw a lot.. but then kind of lost track along the way.
I do have some free time coming up next weekend. Definitely going to find some time to hole up in a coffee shop in uptown for a few hours.. journaling and drawing and listening to music.. like a date night for myself.. Sounds perfect really :)
Tuesday a REALLY old friend is coming over.. I ran into her the other weekend and we were finally able to set something up, I am so excited to sit down and just talk with her, we used to play barbies together and resturant and dress up.. Haven't really talking for man.. has to be like 10 plus plus years.. Probably since I was like 13 or 14 and she was like 11 or 12. It is crazy all the different paths life takes you down.. and how fast time really does fly by..
I mean seriously I was just 9.. and going to disney world for the first time and taking a picture with Snow White.. and dieing to see Mickey Mouses house! .. But that was 18 and almost a half years ago.. I'm 3 times 9 over..
Now life consists of.. Being a MOM, working, balancing time with Hayden and time for me, trying to pay all my bills the moth they are due, Doing my best to feel good about myself, and be good to myself, Thinking about what the future holds.. and how soon Hayden will be all grown up.. Just like me. It's weird realizing your a "grown up".
I guess someday I'll have to re-learn that whole wife part.. of life.. I am thinking it will be easier though.. when I am with someone who knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that they REALLY do love me, unconditionally.. and FOREVER.
Until then.. though I am going to do my very best to work on me, Natalie, Work on Respecting myself and Loving myself, and really.. Becoming myself.
~Natalie
2 comments:
coffee shop in uptown...sounds PERFECT.
ooh, 'date nights for me' does sound perfect :) i'm so glad for all that you are learning and realizing at this time in your life! this can help younger women in their search of finding themselves too!! as you are being encouraged may you continue to encourage those just as you are doing thru this blog, by being transparent and sharing all that God is teaching you :)
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