Moving..

It seems as though, we will be moving when our lease is up, and every time i think about it, i get excited and stressed all in the same breath.
- Excited -
- for more SPACE! a two bedroom one bathroom apartment is not sufficient for the amount of people and furniture (and clothing and shoes and jackets for that matter) squished in here. 
- to be close to work, looking in the shakopee area
- to have a whole kitchen, not just a hallway, maybe even an oven with a window and a light! what a novel idea :) oh and COUNTER SPACE! and maybe like a real live pantry!
- to maybe if we get lucky have an office separate from the bedroom, its doesn't bother me but it would be nice.. ya know?
- to organize the boys room or rooms.. maybe get another dresser, and try to fit the toys and games in such all in there.. and not a little here and there, wherever it finds a place.
- to have all my kitchen pots and pans and appliances actually stored in the kitchen.
- for curtains and paint and actually decorating a house.. that is 'mine' (wow! that's such a huge, new, weird, amazing idea!)
- to not have a huge long hallway walk to the garage or the laundry, or the 4 story hike from the garage when i don't want to walk the hallways... its real fun with four paper bags of groceries, let me tell you!

- Stressed -
- having a loan and buying a house #newbee
-  packing... and going through everything..
- finding help, finding a truck..
- about things breaking, which i have never stressed about before, but now that things seem more important cause they were my moms and well, she isn't here.. i worry, if something breaks or scratches i'll probably cry.

Change helps you grow, it isn't all good or all bad.  It will be hard to leave this apartment, being it was the last place i lived with my mom. but the main reason i moved here was because she needed me. I can't live here forever, I must move on. . . it is also Nick and I's first place together, this apartment holds so many memories so many important parts of my life happened while being here. If i could just take over the two bedroom apartment next to us, and then put in another elevator in the stairwell that is on our side of the building,THEN i would stay :) (paying the same rent I am now of course, and putting my own washer and dryer in the new expanded unit)

Well enough day dreaming, should probably start regular dreaming.. as in I should go to bed. And if your curious, I am really over thinking super far ahead of time cause we wouldn't be moving till probably March or April.  assuming we find a house we love.

~Natalie