Birthday Buddies

Robin Williams and I share a Birthday. Mine being July 21st 1981 and his being July 21st 1951.

There isnt a movie I dont love that he has been in. Super favorites include : Dead Poets Society, Hook and Goodwill Hunting.

I have been in complete disbelief that he is dead.
I have an indescribable kindred feeling toward Robin Williams.

I have dabbled with addictions. And I know, deep down I need to tread lightly. So I do.

I have struggled with Depression. I have even gone to counseling a few different times.
I struggled with sad feeling when i was just a little child. I can remember feelings from when i was about 4 or 5. Wishing things in my life were different from what they were. I struggled a lot from 12 to 16. My mom and I fought a lot. Mostly I think now because of my selfishness and how I felt entitled, for some reason or another.

Depression has been an, on and off, consistent feeling in my life.  When my mom died, I realized then, at that point, that I needed help controlling it.I needed to learn to change my thoughts, to have self control, to be bigger than my feelings. I learned to do this with the help of a therapist. I was able to find my own calm in the storm. I was able to calm my storms finally. (I, me.. no one else)

I still have some dark moments, but now I know that is all they are. And that I can overcome the dark within myself. And how I do that, is usually by allowing myself to let those emotions go for awhile, putting them down, letting go of the tight feeling in my stomach. resting. and then look at it without letting it consume me. and realizing and understanding why i had those strong feelings.

I have learned to allow myself to feel, and then letting those feelings go, so that they dont consume me. Because they are just that, feelings, they are not ME.

These are some links of July 21st Birthday Characteristics, for your reading pleasure.

http://entertainment.howstuffworks.com/horoscopes-astrology/july-21-birthday-astrology.htm

http://www.gotohoroscope.com/birthday-horoscopes/july-21st.html

There is always help, there are always people who understand what you are feeling. Even though suicide can sound like a positive way out, it isn't, there is no positive outcome, everyone loses.  Please talk to someone when you're down and out, don't let those feelings fester and grow even darker. Find your light, be the best parts of yourself. Don't linger in the sadness. Feel it and let it leave you, Don't let it make a home inside your heart.