Friendship and then some

Getting together with a good old friend tomorrow. for the first time in about 2 years. 3 years for our boys.
Still praying for other old friendships..

It is great to know there are friends who will be there through all the crazy parts of life. People that don't write you off for one mishap, but give it time and are forgiving, and viseversa.

I have my moments, and say things I don't mean and freak out. But in the last year I feel like I have grown a lot in this area, that I have more control over what comes out of my mouth. Cause words can cut the worst. and once things are said.. it is very hard to "fix" I think we have all been there.

I should be cleaning, but i have been meaning to blog for weeks now.

I really never would have thought that a friends death (Asia) could have SO much impact on my life. It has really shook me, to my core. Every moment, every word, every action.. has so much more meaning now. probably as it should have before. There isn't a day that goes by without her in my thoughts. It still feels better when I am in the presence of people that knew her too. it's quite the bond. that will always be had, by all of us who had the amazing privilege to call her our friend.


Sometimes in your mind, with loved ones and friends, you have to allow yourself to go back to the memories and re-live them in your dreams and daydreams. But then come back.. and continue working on the day to day, and life as we know it now. It isn't the easiest thing to do. But I never want those memories to disappear or become fuzzy. I want them vivid and vibrate and reminders in my everyday.

I have a couple pictures of her up in my apartment. I doubt I will every take them down. Her legacy lives on by all of us who knew her, by what we have learned from her and her life cut short. I will never forget her all her likes and dislikes. all her qwerks and talents. her voice, her laugh, her looks every little thing.

Shopping at Burnsville mall, going out in Shakopee and Bloomington, Singing at Babes, being silly at work, painting her nails over and over again. Moving things, helping me clean out my mom's old apartment, giving me the push for lasik and for watching my cutting words. Bringing snacks to work for her, trying to make each work day at the salon a little bit brighter. laying around on a Sunday watching tv all day.. i dont think ive done that since. lemon drops, almonds, sprint, orange pop.. HER Scarves, her tattoos... i miss her and i always will.

That's life.

On.. to the day... cleaning and cookie making, church and dinner..
... and my thoughts

~Natalie