kick boxing

Having a hard time sleeping tonight, didnt fall asleep until after 11pm and for some reason I basically woke right up about 25 minutes ago.. which was 3:50am. So I figured why not Blog.. right? not like there is really anything else to do at this early morning hour.

A little mom update, We finish the 3rd round of chemo tomorrow. Have a cat scan done on the 13th and than meet with the Doctor again on the 17th to get the results and the new plan from there. She's been more nauseated and puke-y this time. But she is doing a little physical therapy to help strengthen her muscles back up, which is work but is very good. We went to the church I grew up at on Sunday, Mom felt right at home, hoping to try and get her there a little bit more often. Still pretty awkward for me.. but alas as I have learned in may ways recently life isn't all about me.


It is hard to say that though, considering we come from a very 'me' society.. that any growing up as an only child in a single parent family, a lot of things were really about me and for me. I am definitely finally truly learning what 'self-less' is .. and it is not easy. but very do-able. If that makes sense to you than you must have already learned it along the way.

A friend of mine said yesterday "I wish I could understand the feeling of what you are going thru" .. and I was like be thankful you don't have too.. I hope you never have to. It is nice to have time to talk to people, even if i can't always get out of the house. My place is here right now, here at home.

on a funny lighter note, in two totally different conversations yesterday kick boxing came up.. and I am totally thinking about it, great stress and anxiety reliever.. i think maybe just actually getting to the gym though would be a step in the right direction.. Soon it's been on my list now for awhile.

Weeks are funny, it seems like Friday takes so long to get here.. but than before you know it.. it's already Tuesday morning! Hoping to find some moments this week, to get together with some friends, and just "be" and know that the people taking care of my mom are very competent, which they always are and I am so thankful for them!

Hope to catch a nap before Hayden gets home in 2 hours and 10 minutes. :)

Prayers for a good report on the 17th would be grand, thank you everyone

~Natalie