Memories..

are something I will always have. That is a very encouraging thing. Cause no one can take them. Memories will always be there.


I am thankful for my relationship with God, because that is what has brought me threw the last 5 months. I have dealt with a lot of feelings in reference to my divorce, my mom and now Asia. WHAT A ROLLERCOASTER. I have grown to much since even 7 months ago. I deal with things differently, I think a little bit more before I speak, I invest time in people instead of waste it, I'm back to not minding being alone, I'm stronger and over all through Christ I have found a new Joy in life. It is hard to see it all the time but it is better to allow him the control he already has, then for me to try and pave my own path. Which is definitely what I was trying to do.

I had been turning into something I never in a thousand years wanted to be. And once I realized that through various situation. and lots of hardheadedness. I threw that old pattern away. It wasn't me, it was a mask I had found comfort in to hide the real Natalie. Which I believe just started to surface since December. It hasn't been easy to make the right choices, but everytime I do I feel like I win back some self respect. And also gain self control through respecting myself.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you to everyone and anyone who has been praying for me! They have helped more then you can imagine!

~Natalie