Hold up wait a minute..

It has been WAY too cold.. I mean I am actually excited that my weather says it will be 15 today.. Excited? .. Only in Minnesota!

I have made it to the Gym Monday and Tuesday this week. Thinking about Not today.. Just cause I don't feel like being all cold. But then I have kind of leveled off at 140.. would like to try and push my self to the next goal weight down. I think now that Hayden will be gone for almost 9 days, I will do my best to kick it up a notch and work out twice a day most of those days. I am basically one size away from my smallest clothes. Crazy how much your body changes after having a baby.. It's not what it was but.. ya know its lookin pretty good. Talking about all this is making me want to go now :) I mean cause I need to wash my hair anyways. .. So might as well go and work out first right?

I'm sure I am going to have a few breakdown moments while Hayden is gone for what will seem like FOREVER. I watched the dumbest Christmas movie ever made.. Fred Clause and actually cried at the end when the kids were opening their presents cause I won't be there this Christmas to watch my Hayden and his cousins open gifts. That was Monday and then Yesterday I was playing Sing Star with my mom and Started Trace Atkins , Your going to miss this.. and yeah.. like 4 lines in just started to ball.. Wow... yeah I think I'm a little over emotional.. But that is to be expected. Crying wto days in a row.. is odd.. Kind of reminds me of watching TLC when I was pregnant.

Need to get some baking done before Saturday Evening.. want to send some Banana Bread, Pumpkin bread and some Christmas Cookies with Hayden for his trip to Indiana and Michigan. I really hope soon I can get to sleep at a decent time. It is such a change being here alone at night.. Just beginning to get used to it.. And Ben's been gone for 4 months. Maybe I'll be good with being alone once it has been 6 months. One thing I am glad for are the Friends I have and the ones I am making. It is weird to have some friends now that have never met Ben.. and only know me the way things are now.

Better get off here and get some food around so I can figure out what all I am going to accomplish before I have to leave for work in 3 and a half hours :)

~Natalie