Trust

2 years ago, I would have said I had no trust for anyone left.
1 year ago.. I would have said almost the same thing, but was realizing i had a choice to make to grow and heal.

Now, I am growing and being stretched, and I am in the mist of my healing. I have learned so much, and will continue to learn even more. Without the "low points" in my life it would be harder to find the "high points" as much as I think about all the mistakes I have made, I realize I have learned and overcome so much buy living threw those mistakes.. or lesser choices in life.

Believe it or not, many have told me I have been wise for my age, starting as a young teenager, I have always felt a calling on my life, because there has always been one (like on all of our lives). Now instead of trying to go back in time and find those high points and try to re-live them, I have realized I can't do that because I am a different person now, I have learned and lived so much more then I did when I was 16 or even 19 or even 21. The life and understanding I have now because of all I have been through and all I have learned from and all I have made decisions to be and do.

I really like who I am today. Even versus who I was a month ago. So much can happen in 4 or 8 weeks.. for me this whole year has been weeks of growth. Choosing to listen to God, choosing to accept constructive criticism, beginning to surround myself with more positive people. Has been truly life changing. I am in awe of who I am versus who I was even 8 months ago.

~Natalie