I found this in a Journal from January and it really explains things pretty well on how I was and Am feeling...
"I want to just be with someone who really wants to be with me. Someone who will fight to save what we have. Someone who will love me for everything I am and everything I'm not. I want to be in a relationship where we both work at it... not just me. I want to be with someone who wants to love me.. not someone I have to ask to love me. I want to be with someone I can have fun with, not just live through the mundane everyday. I want to be with someone who is happy to come home to me. Someone who smiles when they see me. Someone who appreciates me and what I do.
Am I asking for too much?
I feel like I have been disregarded. Used at times even. Taken for granted. Passed over. Completely ignored. Sometimes I even feel like an excuse.
I know everything that has happened in my life so far.. isn't all someone else's fault. A lot of it is mine. and I will be strong and take the blame.
But I will not continue to go on with my life being so unhappy.. life is just too short to live the next 70 years like this.."
It is the truth. it is how I feel.
~Natalie
3 comments:
Natalie I love you. My heart aches to hear this is where your life is right now. I SO agree with the "annonymous" comment, try to shut out people (and yourself) and hear just what God may be saying. I am praying for you and thinking of you.
I feel like I have been disregarded. Used at times even. Taken for granted. Passed over. Completely ignored. Sometimes I even feel like an excuse.
ditto
I didn't mean to make you sad. I just empathize....
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