I feel like I went straight from being Depressed to now being stressed out and full of anxiety.. and my body isn't liking it at all.. I had my first Migraine today.. started out as an eye migraine.. couldn't see hardly anything and couldn't focus on anything for the life of me.. and then it turned into the most mind altering headache I have ever had.. SUCKED!
It was just time to end things, I think if we would have waited any longer we would have grown to hate each other, and we can't go there.. we both have to be around each other for Hayden's sake and work on being friends.
It is so super hard. Ridiculously hard. Harder then anything I think I have ever been through before. I feel disregarded...
Tomorrow will be my first counseling session alone. It has been one of the things I have been looking forward to this weekend.
Do have other more tedious things to get done this week. Like find a roomate. Luckily I have found a place to live, WHICH is AWESOME~ a great relief there. Even though I will be farther away from my mom and babysitters. I'll be in South St Paul.
I am exhausted and need to get some sleep.. have a long exhausting emotional day to get through again tomorrow.. and I don't exactly know how that is going to work out.
~Natalie
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Hang in there. Sorry that you are going through this
I am so sorry to hear that you and Ben are having to go through this right now. I totally don't feel this is my place to say anything, but at the same time, can't say nothing. Above all else, remember to be listening to God in this time. Don't just listen to what other people are telling you; don't just listen to what you think you know is the "right" answer; listen to Him. Emotions can run high and make it hard to see the Truth. Carve out time to soak in His Word, to listen to Him in prayer. Divorce doesn't solve problems -- just changes the problems, and however this ends up, you will need Him. I know you know Him -- cling to that, lean on that, and ask Him to show you where he wants you to go.
Take it a day at a time, and never stop listening to Him. You and Ben and Hayden are in our prayers right now.
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