November?

Wow.. This fall is going by so very fast!

I am curious as to what is going to happen after the next 9 days. Getting Divorced is horrible. I feel myself thinking sometimes that I will never get married again just cause getting divorced sucks so much. But ya know.. there is life after divorce.. and God has a plan.. so no need for me to make that kind of decision right now, or ever.

I have been in a good place the last few weeks.. realizing things I need to do, and how I need to start thinking about me more.. Spending time talking to myself really and finding me through all this pain and hurt. Deciding which things really need my energy, and which ones just don't cause there is nothing I can do about it.

I start working Sundays at the desk at the Spa starting this week. So no more Sunday morning church.. My mom will be continuing to take Hayden on Wednesdays and Sundays. I LOVE MY MOM! In so many small ways she is a real life saver! So today is the even before my first 5 days week ever.. really.. well that I can remember right now. CRAZY! .. I am just hoping more people decide to come in this week, cause when I went to my work meeting today and checked out the computer ... my schedule is quite sparse. Probably finish my file project this week.

These are my final days as a lifetime member.. Switched over to fitness 19, got in on the sweetest deal ever and am only paying 8 dollars a month and that includes child care.. it is super amazing! WAY better then 45 to 60 dollars.. Paid rent for the first time in October.. this month I get to add all the normal bills on to that.. totally crossing my fingers hoping everything will turn out..

Really wish gas prices would stay low.. but I have this sinking feeling that after the election its going to somehow find its way back up..

Well, think I'm going to get to bed early! Good night :)
oh FYI I'm at 146 now!! So EXCITED ABOUT THAT!
~Natalie