So.. I think instead of continually going over all the bad things and all the crap that went on between me and Ben and thinking about all i could have or could have done more.. I need to just except that I did A LOT and I did do all I could, and I have put forth great effort.. And just need to accept that it is over, unless God does some incredible miracle.. which I am highly doubting at this point.. I am going to get out of the mind set of why me and how can i fix this.. and just start thinking about me, about me and Hayden. About our life now. And what I can do in the mean time to get from one day to then next. Like not beat myself up all the time, just give myself some credit and start appreciating myself, and not tearing myself down.
I am Lovable, even though some people have chose not to love me.
I am important, I count. I am Pretty (that's a hard one to ingrain in my head right now)
I am going to allow others to be who they are.
And I am going to be who I am, and I am going to get to know myself more every moment of every day. I can do this! I CAN stand on my own two feet again. I am strong.
~Natalie Kay
And I think just cause I can.. I will put up my Christmas stuff in October cause I WANT TO!:)
5 comments:
Sounds good, girlie. And you are GORGEOUS, inside and out.
You go girl, put those decorations up!
I could never do it though, I would MOURN if I skipped the season of fall decorations!! :)
You CAN do it!!
And you CAN put your Christmas stuff up in October if you want to ! :) The stores do it so why not you too!
Natalie, You are delightful, honest, beautiful, kind, strong, talented, true, exciting and above all else LOVEABLE!! Plus you are learning to take care of yourself. I believe that GOD has already given you an incredible miracle - the ability to make your life into what you wish it to be! Keep growing and keep getting to know what you like and what you love and then let it come into your life gently and with lots of love. In case you are wondering why Ben? You couldn't have Hayden, be Hayden with out Ben's genes... so, the two of you had a reason to be together and now it's time to move on. Keep up the great work of taking care of you! All is well. You are loved. Sharon
That is awesome!!! jingle bells baby!
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